Walking along the beach one evening, skipping a few shells here and there, I spotted something that stopped me in my tracks. Resting at the edge of the tide was a flawless conch shell, large and unbroken. At first, I could hardly believe it was in one piece. It felt like a small treasure had just washed up to shore. I bent down, picked it up, and turned it over in my hand.
It wasn’t empty. A living conch filled the interior, its body moving slowly and perfectly settled inside. My excitement dissolved into an acknowledgment that I had to put it back. How poetic, that I found the perfect shell only to put it back. I placed it exactly where I found it and refrained from glancing on my walk back down the beach.
The feeling was distantly familiar. It was like meeting someone you feel an instant spark with, only to learn shortly afterwards they’re already in a relationship. The small flash of embarrassment, the thought of mistaken guilt for even thinking it might be available. Had I known it was occupied, I would have admired from a distance.
Normally, I would have taken a photo. But I didn’t have my phone, so all I have is the memory of those few seconds holding it, feeling the weight, and thinking it would look really nice on my desk. If you lined up ten similar shells, maybe I could pick it out, but maybe not. The impression it made doesn’t need a picture.
Some opportunities arrive when they’re already spoken for. The timing is off. The perfect home is occupied, and all you can do is pass by. You accept that you might never see it again. There is freedom in enjoying the shell without claiming it. I could admire its natural beauty and colors without needing to keep it. That doesn’t happen often in a world where we instinctively capture, save, or store anything that even slightly moves us.
Maybe one day I’ll walk the same stretch of beach and find it again, emptied of its occupant. Maybe it will end up on my desk, a reminder of the day I found it and the impression it left on me. Maybe the tide will take it somewhere I’ll never see. Either way, it made me pause, notice the world more closely, and leave with a memory worth keeping.