After a breakup or a loss of any kind, it's normal to feel like you will never be able to love someone as much as you've loved that person, or feel the same way about whatever relationship you've lost. I used to think that our ability and capacity to love was constant throughout our lives, but have, only in the past few years, reoriented my thinking on the subject. I've determined that our ability to love, in fact, expands following heartbreak and also grows as we mature and better understand how we best show our love. This pain can lead to a more thoughtful and comprehensive understanding of ourselves.
When we experience the pain of a breakup, it can be tempting to act like a turtle, pulling into our shell to avoid being hurt again. We withdraw our hearts from our sleeves and convince ourselves that we are safer hidden away, and tell ourselves we may never love again. While this may provide short-term comfort, it is not a long-term solution. This defensive mechanism often precedes a steady period of emotional growth.
The pain of heartbreak discounts the fact that you are a better person for having shown and received love at all. Loving someone is never a zero-sum game. Love is not a limited resource and should not fade throughout the day, like discipline or patience sometimes do. Just as creative thinking expands with each effort to stretch your imagination and engage your mind, so too does your capacity to love grow each time you show love to someone else. Like a muscle strengthened through repeated use, love deepens and broadens through the simple act of giving it away.
This pain, when faced directly and not shied away from, can be one of our greatest teachers. Each heartbreak offers an opportunity to understand ourselves more deeply. We begin to more clearly see what we value, what we need, and what we can give. Through sorrow, we develop empathy. Through longing, we reveal resilience. Through reflection, we gain wisdom. The very act of having loved and lost can prepare us to love again with more clarity and compassion.
Choosing to love again is an act of courage. It requires vulnerability and a certain level of optimism about life. Loving well demands a level of self-respect towards who you have developed yourself to be and in confidently knowing that you can be a positive contributor to someone else's life.
Heartbreak doesn't have to mark the end of our emotional growth. Instead of retreating, we can use the experience to better understand our values, improve our communication, and make more intentional choices in future relationships. It means approaching love with intention, clarity, and the wisdom gained through experience.